Help Me Find It, Lord

"And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well." Luke 12:29-31

"He says, "Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."" Psalm 46:10

"The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in, relies on, and confidently leans on Him, and I am helped; therefore my heart greatly rejoices, and with my song will i praise Him." Psalm 28:7

"So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you." Deuteronomy 31:6

"With God's power working in us, he can do much, much more than anything we can ask or think of." Ephesians 3:20

"Peter said, "Lord, if that is really you, tell me to come to you on the water."
Jesus said. "Come, Peter."
Then Peter left the boat and walked on the water to Jesus. But while Peter was walking on the water, he saw the wind and the waves. He was afraid and began sinking into the water. He shouted, "Lord, save me!"
Then Jesus caught Peter with his hand. He said, "Your faith is so small. Why did you doubt?"
Matthew 14:28-31

"For nothing is impossible with God." Luke 1:37

""The Lord is my shepherd; I have all that I need. He lets me rest in green meadows; He leads me beside peaceful streams. He renews my strength. He guides me along right paths, bringing honor to his name. Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me." Psalm 23:1-4





There are many verses in the word that describe allot of what God seems to be saying to me lately. When fear and worry of the 'what ifs' come into my mind and heart, he tends to give me things like this, or songs. like, Help Me Find It by Sidewalk Prophets. Which seems to sum up what I have been feeling lately. I know I never need to worry about provision. God will provide no matter what! I know that, I believe that. I don't worry. I ask God to show me in amazing ways how provision and supporters will come into my life. I believe he will show me and do so. But everything will be in His timing. Allot of the times, my timing is nothing like the Lords. I want everything right away and fast, fast, fast! Which makes sense to us humans, because I don't have allot of time before I need to be leaving. But once again! even though I worry, and I begin to doubt, I hear words that shake me into fear and 'what do I do' mode. So why does he keep showing me at exact moments the same thing? While I was writing this and feeling the fear of 'what if' God doesn't provide. 'What if' I really am just being lazy and God isn't going to help someone like me? Why does, through the music I am listening to now, stop my focused brain just so i hear the one part of a song that I have never heard before, go; "So why do I worry? Why do i freak out? God knows what I need. You know what I need." Call me crazy....but I believe that.
I decided to write this because, to be completely honest, I'm at a loss as to what I need to do next. If you look at the facts of my situation, it looks completely impossible. Nothing is settling right with me except faith. Is faith not enough? So, I do have a prayer request. That the Lord will show me the next thing I need to do. Also, that if somehow I'm wrong and just making this up, that he would reveal that to me.

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God is good, and God is big!